I'll start with toddler tantrums, i realize she is 2 1/2 years old and they are a part of every toddler/parent day, but my child seems to have them very often. I say this because she literally will fall to the floor, flop around, kick her legs and scream about every single thing. To name a few today: 1. little einsteins was over, 2. she didn't get to jump on her trampoline, 3. i told her she couldn't lock her bedroom door, 4. she did not want her brother to stare at her minnie mouse taking a nap, 5. she didn't want to eat dinner (with much encouragment, she finally did), 6. she did not want to take a bath, and 7. finally she did not want to go to bed. Those are just to name a few. It's an all day everyday thing around here.
The one that gets me the most, NOT WANTING TO GO TO BED. Sometimes I wonder if she is part robot. She DOES NOT sleep. It's driving Zach and I crazy. I don't know if we started a bad habit at a young age or she just really doesn't want sleep. It is a battle every single night, not just one or two nights a week. She usually falls asleep around 12:30 or 1:00 am. I know, I sound like an awful parent letting my 2 year old stay up until all hours of the night. Zach and I battle it out with her every night, asking for milk, juice, tv, a movie, wants to play, not sleepy..the list could go on. I literally have to stop what i'm doing and ask God for patience because by the end of the night, i have none left and lord knows, Zach's were gone about 10 minutes into the process. Any suggestions for 2 year old bedtimes are greatly appreciated?! We need them!
Has anybody ever told you to "cherish these moments"? Do they really mean that? Every single second of the day. It's not just "old" people that say it either, it's parents of teenagers and in between too. I'm sure the parents of these teenagers are cherishing every moment! I love my babies more than life but i do not cherish the moments she is up screaming at 12:00 am because she doesn't want to go to bed and wakes up her brother, who has been screaming because he is teething or the times that she has decided to take her pull up off and just pee in the floor, simply because she didn't want to walk into the bathroom. The list could go on. I had a long conversation with my mom about this. She promises that I will look back and miss every single thing, but right this second. I don't see how. I know i will miss them being little and by no means want them to grow up but I would love for her to go to bed at a decent hour and maybe even use the potty without me bribing her with a barbie doll. (This is a whole other blog, the child knows and is too lazy to go to the potty 80% of the time, which makes this very frusterating!) I realize i sound very negative and i know most people mean well, and simply say that because Peyton or Maddox is being sweet and well behaved wherever we may be and they are sweet babies but I think every parent has the right to not enjoy every single second of parenting.
This was not a fun blog to read but my day has been very busy with diaper changes, tantrums, crying babies, mad babies, hungry babies, and one toddler baby not wanting to close her eyes and i needed to vent. Really, all i wanted to do today was go to the gym. (It did not happen)
Being a mom truly is the best job in the world but also the hardest. To say I love my babies more than life is an understatement. I almost feel guilty for even writing a blog like this after talking to one of my dear friends this evening. I have a very heavy heart for her, she lost her 11 month old baby girl today and my heart breaks for her. She and her family are in my constant thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine what she is feeling. So, i'm off to kiss my sleeping babies (thank you god) one more time tonight.
