toddler tantrums

I'll start with toddler tantrums, i realize she is 2 1/2 years old and they are a part of every toddler/parent day, but my child seems to have them very often. I say this because she literally will fall to the floor, flop around, kick her legs and scream about every single thing. To name a few today: 1. little einsteins was over, 2. she didn't get to jump on her trampoline, 3. i told her she couldn't lock her bedroom door, 4. she did not want her brother to stare at her minnie mouse taking a nap, 5. she didn't want to eat dinner (with much encouragment, she finally did), 6. she did not want to take a bath, and 7. finally she did not want to go to bed. Those are just to name a few. It's an all day everyday thing around here. 

The one that gets me the most, NOT WANTING TO GO TO BED. Sometimes I wonder if she is part robot. She DOES NOT sleep. It's driving Zach and I crazy. I don't know if we started a bad habit at a young age or she just really doesn't want sleep. It is a battle every single night, not just one or two nights a week.  She usually falls asleep around 12:30 or 1:00 am. I know, I sound like an awful parent letting my 2 year old stay up until all hours of the night. Zach and I battle it out with her every night, asking for milk, juice, tv, a movie, wants to play, not sleepy..the list could go on. I literally have to stop what i'm doing and ask God for patience because by the end of the night, i have none left and lord knows, Zach's were gone about 10 minutes into the process.  Any suggestions for 2 year old bedtimes are greatly appreciated?! We need them! 

Has anybody ever told you to "cherish these moments"? Do they really mean that?  Every single second of the day. It's not just "old" people that say it either, it's parents of teenagers and in between too. I'm sure the parents of these teenagers are cherishing every moment! I love my babies more than life but i do not cherish the moments she is up screaming at 12:00 am because she doesn't want to go to bed and wakes up her brother, who has been screaming because he is teething or the times that she has decided to take her pull up off and just pee in the floor, simply because she didn't want to walk into the bathroom. The list could go on.  I had a long conversation with my mom about this. She promises that I will look back and miss every single thing, but right this second. I don't see how. I know i will miss them being little and by no means want them to grow up but I would love for her to go to bed at a decent hour and maybe even use the potty without me bribing her with a barbie doll. (This is a whole other blog, the child knows and is too lazy to go to the potty 80% of the time, which makes this very frusterating!) I realize i sound very negative and i know most people mean well, and simply say that because Peyton or Maddox is being sweet and well behaved wherever we may be and they are sweet babies but I think every parent has the right to not enjoy every single second of parenting. 

This was not a fun blog to read but my day has been very busy with diaper changes, tantrums, crying babies, mad babies, hungry babies, and one toddler baby not wanting to close her eyes and i needed to vent. Really, all i wanted to do today was go to the gym. (It did not happen) 

Being a mom truly is the best job in the world but also the hardest. To say I love my babies more than life is an understatement.  I almost feel guilty for even writing a blog like this after talking to one of my dear friends this evening.  I have a very heavy heart for her, she lost her 11 month old baby girl today and my heart breaks for her. She and her family are in my constant thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine what she is feeling. So, i'm off to kiss my sleeping babies (thank you god) one more time tonight.

I know I said I was going to start this blog to keep everyone updated on my babies, well, here I am 30 1/2 weeks pregnant and only one blog, I'm not too good at this.

I've been having myself a little pity party the last couple days, yes, i know it's ridiculous but they have honestly sucked. Two flat tires, baby busted her face at daycare, she hasn't slept that great, peed the bed (on me lastnight), she was in our bed because we had no electricity and of course, all flashlights had no batteries and I wasn't about to be in the pitch black with her not beside me, i just started a load of laundry when it went out, we ran out of milk and that's what she cried for...that, and "my jack", and to top it off, I miss Oklahoma and I have no friends here, makes for a very boring day. I work all weekend and i'm not looking forward to it, they have moved me floors, which isn't that terrible but atleast let me know that you've hired someone full time in my position, I haven't left for maternity leave yet! I promise, I'm almost done with my rant.

On another note, I feel like I only see my husband ever now and then, in between phone calls and texts messages when he gets home from work all day. I try not to complain about it but when you sit at home all day with a 2 year old and have no one to call to ask to go to the park, mall, or lunch with it gets to me. I can't remember the last time husband and I hung out alone, I know we went to the movie last month one time, which was nice but sometimes hanging out with just him makes me happy. Before last month, it was November, yes, NOVEMBER, I have a hard time having sympathy for people that complain about not getting date nights or free time because i really don't. It's weird though, I wouldn't trade my days with my princess for anything it just gets lonely sometimes. And I should add, I am very thankful for all my husband does for our family...I just like seeing him more than a few minutes a day!

On to happier things, like our baby boy! We are going for another 4D ultrasound on Tuesday. I am very excited about that. The first one he wasn't very cooperative with, we only saw his little face a couple times which looks just like Peyton's pictures! I think he'll look like her. I day dream about what he'll really look like alot. He is going to have the CUTEST room, I just don't have a room for him. Poor little guy. This time with Peyton she was ready to go, minus the continuous clothes buying I did and still do for her. I really have to dig to find things for him, although Carter's on the boardwalk has really cute comfy stuff that I've got him. I need to raid my nephew's baby clothes. He's the best dressed little boy ever!

Anyway, I better get going. You know the usual, laundry, dishes, vacuuming, and my kitchen seriously needs to be mopped. But right now, Peyton has other plans, currently I am wearing a bib and she is doing my hair. If i move, she says "shit" which means sit in her tiny little language. So that's what I do. After all, she is the boss. Oh, and someday i'll add pictures and make this page pretty but can't find the time right now.

I'm not at writer, at all. Never have been. I really just wanted to start this so friends and family can keep up with Miss Prissy Pants (Peyton) and Baby #2! As most of you know, baby #2 is due in September. We find out if Peyton will have a brother or a sister April 11! We are rooting for a boy but as long as we have a happy healthy baby, i'll be happy.

On another note, Louisiana is not liking me and i'm not liking it. We have a mutual dislike for each other and i am counting the days to move back to Oklahoma. When? I have no idea but hopefully sooner than later. I miss out on way too much. Like, my nephew, baby Jack. Who is technically not a baby anymore, but i'll call him that until he's 18. I miss his "tay tay's" and giggles.  My days are spent playing at the park, going to McDonald's, cleaning a house, cooking, and going to work. Louisiana has made me very boring. Actually, I wouldn't trade the days for anything except those days back in OK.  Some days are harder than others here but we make it work.

I really don't have much to say right now but baby updates will be coming along soon, along with pictures of both of my babies!

My heart is heavy tonight for so many people. Hard to sleep and prayers are going up for peace and comfort for each family.